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Quite some time has passed since my last entry. I usually update my blog according to new pics from my camera. No update....no pics. Yes, it is true. I have somehow misplaced another camera. So, I will try to update March /April's events with my ever forgetful memory.

We had a awesome spring break. I loooovvveeeeddd having an entire week off. No school, dance, or soccer practice. It was great. We headed down to So Cal to visit with both Trevor's grandmas from Idaho. It was fun to see them and visit with them. Grandma Dorothy had a ball singing with the girls. Sydney played the ukulele while grandma sang and danced in the recliner and Morgan and Addi danced around the room. I had a super cute pic but yes...it is lost forever with the camera.

We took the kids to see How to train your dragon. $50 later, it was good but more of a boy movie. My girls were not that impressed and I was shocked at how much it cost to take a family of 5 to the movies.

We also went to Knotts' Berry Farm and had a blast with Kim and AJ and cousins. I felt terrible for Kim, who is pregnant and has a little baby, and therefore couldn't ride any rides. But, not terrible enough to stay with her and all the kids while they played in Camp Snoopy. Trev, AJ, and I took off to ride roller coasters. THANKS KIM!!! It was awesome. I felt like a teenager again and wanted Trevor to hold me from behind while we were in line for the rides. But alas, he wouldn't give in to my teenage fantasies.

I absolutely loved having conference over Easter weekend. It was so nice to relax and listen to the prophets and apostles speak. After the Sunday sessions, we had a big family dinner outside. As we were all sitting down starting to eat, I felt really dizzy and realized we were having a earth quake. The water from the pool was swaying back and forth and spilling out all over the concrete. It didn't last long. Maybe a minute, but it felt so weird. After dinner, we had our traditional money egg hunt. Trevor's parents load eggs full of money for both kids and adults. Trevor and I made bank this year...I think we found around $50. Great fun! You should see me out there, looking for these eggs. I lose all sense of self control. It's a riot.

The girls started Spring soccer. Morgan is playing on a new club team called Neusport. She loves it. She has already learned to much and made huge progress since the fall. Last Saturday she got to play on their A team bc they were short players. (she is on the B team) You could really tell the difference in the girls who have played together on the club team. They were fantastic. I was so proud of Morgan, she kept right up with them and was trying her hardest. Sydney is playing with the Lil Angles with her friend Melanie. She played a awesome game Saturday running her best after the other team and scoring two goals. It is so fun to watch them play. We're not suppose to shout from the sidelines and let the coaches coach but it is so hard for Trevor and I to be quiet. Especially on Morgan's team. We just want to yell at them and tell them what to do but, were getting in trouble with the coaches and have to learn to keep our mouths shut. (Trevor especially)

Trevor and I got new callings in the ward. I got called to be the primary chorister and Trevor the young mens/ scouting assistant. Trevor went on his first camp out last weekend. He said he got a hour and a half of sleep Friday night between the boys talking, and his allergies. He got up at 4 am and walked to a 7 -11 to get some allergy medicine. (Where were they camping you ask? No idea, but within walking distance to a 7-11) I think this camping thing might take a while for Trevor to get use to. Especially because his idea of camping previous to this calling is the Marriott. I'm enjoying my calling in Primary. Although, I have to say, I'm quite intimidated by the senior primary. Morgan told me I picked baby songs for them to sing and they can not sing baby songs in senior primary!!! Well...guess I'll have to work on that.

April has completely flown by. I can't keep up with anything. We have something going on every night of the week, dance, soccer, church etc. We don't even go out of the weekends anymore because were just too tired. I've been working out with my sister in the early mornings everyday but Sunday. I fall asleep on the couch shortly after I put the kids to bed because I am so exhausted. I'm still not pregnant despite all best efforts.


I bought a new book "look better naked" from Women's heath magazine thinking it would inspire my ever going quest to lose weight. As I read the pages last night, I was in tears...overwhelmed with my life and lack of time for me. Can I lose this weight? Yes! Do I have time to shop, prep, and cook these 3 healthy meals and 2 snacks that I should be eating everyday on top of everything else I have on my plate?- teaching preschool, laundry, housework, errands, bills, shopping, church callings, kids, friends, husband...did I say laundry!!! No. Will my kids and Trevor eat this food with me? Probably not. Do I enjoy getting up at 5:30 every morning to work out? No, but it's the only time I've got. So I'm doing it . Everyday, I've been doing it. The last 2 months I got up every morning (including Saturday) to do Insanity with my sister. Did I lose any weight after it? No. Was I stronger? Yes, but I wasn't going for stronger. I was going for skinny...OK let's be realistic, Not skinny...just one less roll. And last night as I read that book I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I cried and felt so overwhelmed with the unrealistic expectation I am putting on myself. The thought came to me this morning as I was still depressed, To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven. Will it ever be my time? Will I ever get it together enough to put on my size 6's? I'm trying the best that I can but I don't think its enough. I know this season of my life will be short and I'll probably look back and laugh at it but today, with summer right around the corner, I'm depressed! But, just like the little engine that could, I'll wipe my tears, and put on my happy face and say, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. And maybe this time, I'll believe it.